| my all |
[Aug. 9th, 2006|03:14 am] |
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| | mariah carey | ] |
"I'm think of you in my sleepless solitude tonight
If its wrong to love you
then my heart just won't let me be right
I'd give my all for your love tonight
I can see you clearly
And your just so far
like a distant star i'm wishing on tonight.
I'd give my all just to feel you next to me
I'd give my all to have just one more night with you
i'd risk my life to feel your body next to mine
cause i cant go on living in the memory of our song
i'd give my all for your love tonight..."
A song by Mariah Carey |
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| To the person my dream was about: |
[Aug. 4th, 2006|10:17 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | In my bedroom | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
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I had a horrible dream about you last night. I have thought about it all day long. I dreamed you were dying. I love you so much...It would kill me if you died. The dream was so sad...I well up with tears at the thought, but I can't get it out of my head. You were so frail, so skinny. Your face was sunken in and you were weak. You've always been the stronger one. In my dream, you were stuck in a life that you couldn't get out of because you didn't really have a choice. You knew you were going to die, and I wanted to die with you. I know this is silly to be so upset over a dream but this dream came with real emotions. I mourned for you in this dream as if you were really going to die. I felt the feelings of pure sadness. The feelings were real as it is this very moment as I am writing this. I doubt you'll ever see this journal, but if you ever do...you need to know that I love you so much. If you were here, I'd tell you. We've had our rough times, but when you REALLY TRUELY love someone, the love never dies...and I'll always love you no matter what. |
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[Aug. 4th, 2006|10:15 pm] |
I had a horrible dream about you last night. I have thought about it all day long. I dreamed you were dying. I love you so much...It would kill me if you died. The dream was so sad...I well up with tears at the thought, but I can't get it out of my head. You were so frail, so skinny. Your face was sunken in and you were weak. You've always been the stronger one. In my dream, you were stuck in a life that you couldn't get out of because you didn't really have a choice. You knew you were going to die, and I wanted to die with you. I know this is silly to be so upset over a dream but this dream came with real emotions. I mourned for you in this dream as if you were really going to die. I felt the feelings of pure sadness. The feelings were real as it is this very moment as I am writing this. I doubt you'll ever see this journal, but if you ever do...you need to know that I love you so much. If you were here, I'd tell you. We've had our rough times, but when you REALLY TRUELY love someone, the love never dies...and I'll always love you no matter what. |
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| The tears fell like rain... |
[Jul. 31st, 2006|06:05 pm] |
I hate today. I want to go to bed and never wake up. I'm so stressed and discouraged that I am actually physically sick to my stomach. I've been fighting the urge to vomit since 7am this morning. Not only that, but after all my fighting, I broke down and cried today.. I couldn't help it...all of a sudden, all my emphathy and all my compassion just totally left me and I broke down. I've never felt so low, so stupid, so dumb as I have today. I don't understand this...I made honor roll all thru high school, I start college and make As...I had a 3.8 gpa in college going into nursing school, but then once I started nursing school, I'm all of a sudden dumb...busting my ass for just a chance to make a mere 74.5 and I can't even do that. What a damn loser I must be. What a fucking waste of my life! 3 years I've devoted to something that I started out loving...turns out, its not for me at all and now I hate it. I don't want to be a nurse anymore...thank you Mrs. Grice! Thank you for all your fucking help and thank you for your damn sincere compassion! I owe my fucked up life to you!!! My stress threshold has been crossed. This is it for me. To hell with it all!!!!!!!!!! |
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| Stupid day. |
[Jul. 30th, 2006|06:44 pm] |
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I've had such an aweful day but nothing happened. I guess thats why I've had such an aweful day. And I feel so damn stupid!!! |
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